Here I go again,
Stumbling over to my own words;
tripping on high stilettos on cobbled stone.
Here I am,
Watching my life snoring away;
a fattened dog with little care of admin
While the world whirls past me in full speed
I fall again and again, fast I fall
Each time my face collapses intoa mud of disappointment.
Here I am,
falling on my thoughts
And life is served with skim milk
And yet my heart’s confusion spits sparks of punctuated sorrow and pity
Where I lie, awake to life’s roar
and my shadow fades.
Here I am drowning in my desires
Heart has stopped its pulse
The city’s adrenalin rousing every toxin in me
I palpitate to the anxieties of the next moment
Alive but unaccounted
My desires drew me to the snare,
Its juicy poison that stole
My innocent passions;
lusting lips after the light has gone
I thought they said these things would make me happy?
contentment? Fulfilment, where are they?
The enough I bring is unacknowledged.
I cannot stop the cycle I have started;
an inferno it can’t be quenched
Even to the Master’s desires.
Time and again
a devoted nomad
You keep your walk with me
If I’d turned just once to look
I’d have seen your shadow side by side with me
I longed for someone like you
Someone who would listen
Someone who would hold me
Someone who would make it all complete;
Making me whole.
A while ago,
You were there,
Like a totem you never changed your stripes
Nor left my side
It seems you knew me more than I could.
When I can’t lean on my very thoughts, feelings or experience
You turn around and show yourself
Seems after all you were all I’d ever want
And I would have cherished had I the wisdom
And I would have gripped to you tightly
had I the courage of vulnerability
Now that I know how safe it is to have, You.
You are here,
As I am, resting in the love you give.
I am here secure in your endless words
Time will move
Life will change
And the one thing remaining
Is my eternal cocoon of solace
I am yours
Always and always,
You made me your own
Alive and nourished by love
This is love,
May 22, 2012